Results Day……….

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Exam time has now been and gone but for those two weeks at the end of August there are so many nervous looking faces.

Having completed my year of GCSE Maths and sitting the exams in May/June, I had become one of those nervous individuals. Taking the exams was the easy bit, the nerves and apprehension seemed to kick in when the waiting began.

Another one of those situations that you take for granted. Well, wrongly, I did. It hit me on the day before Results Day that I may not have actually got the C Grade I needed to move on, what if I didn’t? What then?

When I had an email telling me results would be available from 8am onwards on the 25th of August, it seemed only right that I be there for that time. I couldn’t have waited any later. Sleep the night before didn’t happen and all my nails had been bitten as far as they could have been. I had somehow managed to convince myself I was in D Grade city. In my mind resitting in November was where I was headed.

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Searching for the results room, I found that I wasn’t the first person there, nor was I the first to get my results. There was indeed a welcoming committee of people including my college lecturer      Julie Scott.

I opened my envelope and this was what I saw……


Overjoyed doesn’t come close, the realisation that my brain actually did still function and hadn’t been mushed since leaving school was such a relief.  Finally embarking on my future learning plans was now a reality and the relief of knowing that this part was under my belt. Well……there are developments on that front too, but before I tell you about them…..

I would like to say a massive thank you to Julie Scott. What an amazing teacher and support she is. If it wasn’t for her going above and beyond I would not have got on the course, let alone passed with flying colours. Her approach is firm, it became apparent as the course went on though that this is through care and her passion for her students to succeed. The learning techniques, extra hours and energy she ploughs into her classes can not be faulted. If I had been taught like that years ago then I would have not spent 20 years thinking that I didn’t have the head for Maths. What an amazing lady she is and I urge anyone who has the pleasure of her not only this year but years to come to stick in. Julie will pull you out the other side, just do as she says, welcome the support and never be afraid to ask for more help. New College Durham do indeed have a gem in her, she should be cherished.

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As for me returning in September for the Access Course….well it has been decided as a collective that it would be to my advantage to defer until next year.

Why, well having visited childcare for Penny and having submitted my application for funding I was declined for this year. I did have the option of swapping the timetable days, which would have meant I wouldn’t have needed the funding but with surgery coming up, hospital appointments and the upcoming start of the Erivedge, I didn’t think it fair to commit to it this year, when I would need time of the other timetable and come October I may not have the energy to do all the work that comes with the course.

The college have been very helpful, (Student Loans not so much, they have managed to lose my brand new copy of my birth certificate).

It is my goal to complete a few small courses this year and try and focus on what path I will be going down. The aim for me is to have a clear idea of what and where I want to go, what University offers what I need and of course to have Penny in nursery where I don’t have to panic about where, when and whom is doing what.

I am content with my decision, Mark is happy with my decision and I have promised those closest to me that although I am taking a year out, I will still be pursuing an education, just in smaller doses…


Back 2 Life….


My holiday is officially over and I am back to the keyboard to type it all up for you.

The last few weeks have been manic and I have so much to tell you, share and get your opinion on.

First and foremost I would like to update you on the Gorlins Syndrome stuff.

As you are all aware I have been advised to try the Erivedge Treatment. Anyone who likes my Facebook page will also be aware of the dilemma I faced a few weeks ago, however for those of you that don’t here is the dilemma I faced….

After deciding on a start date to commence the Erivedge Treatment I received to letters in the post. One was the confirmation from the Northern Centre for Cancer Care to confirm that I was indeed embarking on the Erivedge Treatment and the other was from the University Hospital of North Durham with a date for surgery to remove the BCC’s I currently have.

Now the dilemma comes from the fact that I want to get rid of the BCC’s I currently have, yes the Erivedge course may get rid of them but it could be months. When I get a BCC my mind takes over and I am not settled until it is gone. Here I am with 6+ and I have the opportunity to get rid of them, but I also have the opportunity to keep them at bay.

After consulting my Gorlins friends I decided that I would ask the team at the Freeman Hospital if they would be happy for me to have the surgery to remove the growths I currently have and then embark on the journey they are offering as a preventative rather than a cure.

Phone call made I awaited a reply and to my great relief my Oncologist is more than happy for me to do this.

Decision made I also decided that if I am going to start from scratch with no BCC’s it is vitally important that I uncover the areas that are hiding at least two BCC’s and get rid of this hair. As you all know the chances of me losing it when I start the treatment are high so I figure lets do this thing properly. Hair off before my pre consult for surgery and fingers crossed all the BCC’s are removed in one fell swoop.

How am I feeling? Well I am relieved to not be in two minds of which direction to take. I have been given the chance to take both options and that’s great. Not looking forward to the surgery, but then who would be? Also, I am apprehensive about the next new step. I am not a fan of new things, creature of habit springs to mind. All I can do is go with the flow and not worry about things I can’t control.

Anyway on a happier note, what have I got coming up over the next week for you to read about?

We have been so busy with days here, there and everywhere. Here are a few teasers for you:

Girly Night’s…..

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Date Night….

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Impromptu Family Day….

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Libby’s First Football Match…..


Results Day….


The Journey Across the Border….


Haven Holiday…..

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Zoo Adventures…..


Kids in the Kitchen…..


Nothing beats a cup of tea….


I also have a few books to review for you, I will hopefully have an update on my college adventure for you (what a nightmare that is proving to be, yet again), a list of hospital visits and some exciting things coming up this week to also tell you about.

Thank you for reading and I do hope you enjoy what I have to come over the next few days….

For now…